Duvets and Bears

Oh my goodness, this is so me right now, currently under my duvet on my day off. And, oh what a cold, grey, horrible day. Other than a doctor’s appt., at 11:20am, the rest of my day off will be spent under my duvet.

Autism and Expectations

It’s Monday. The sky is a wrinkled sheet of grey. The dawn chorus is chiding me for staying beneath my duvet just a little longer.

Just as I brace myself for a change in texture, from brushed cotton to cold clothing, the rain starts to patter and I falter.

Today I have made space to falter. I am slowing down. I am keeps things to a minimum.

Energy has been spent on the good sort of socialising and like a torpid, overstuffed lion, I am sated. I will metaphorically sleep off the stupor and emerge re-energised.

My social hangovers don’t hold the pressures they once did. I am not pushing myself on, so the headaches aren’t pounding in the background as I turn gears that are overheated and screeching. Instead I’m letting them idle.

Can’t think of the words right now? Not a problem, let them go, they’ll come back.

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Autscriptic

Autism and Expectations

You don’t look autistic.

Yes I do.

You don’t act autistic though.

Yes I do.

Yeah, but you’re not like “properly” autistic.

Yes I am.

You can make eye contact.

Yes I can.

You don’t flap all the time.

I do at birds.

You flap at birds?

I flap at birds.

Why do you flap at birds?

It would be rude not to wave at them when they wave at me.

That’s a bit weird.

Is it?

But you don’t do all that proper stimming and stuff, do you? Or do you?

Every day. Most moments of every day. See this?

Looks like a tiny bead mat.

Yup. I made it, I made lots of them, for when I lose them. I get distracted easily.

Can I have a go?

Go for it.

It feels nice.

It feels essential.

Why do you do it?

I’m an addict.

But it’s not…

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